Sometimes I write. For no reason. I write because it helps me to let out my emotions and deal with my situations better. Sometimes I feel like I can’t write. Not even a book title. But sometimes I think that I could write 1,000 songs without stopping and still have left over inspiration. It calms me, is therapeutic, and helps me to understand what i’m feeling better just with a piece of paper and a pen/pencil. I don’t know why I was born to like writing, I don’t even know if that is good or bad, but it is a gift either way.
Sometimes I think. Which is scary. I think about how the world would be if everyone got along, but also if everyone hated each other. I think of ways my family can be closer or how I can improve my grades in school. Sometimes I think about what it would be like if we didn’t think. We wouldn’t decide what we have to eat every morning. Or what to wear. Or how you want your life would be in the future. We would just do. Would we even think about what we do? Would we just perish into nothingness? Would we believe the things we do if there was nobody thinking about it and explaining to us or teaching us about the world. Our enlightenment of how the world works would be dark.
But when I combine thinking with writing, and sum up my beliefs and thoughts into one or two sentences, I can create something amazing with just all I have. Sometimes even add a catchy tune and a title to finish it off. Sometimes I don’t even need to think about it to write a song. Most of the time though, I work hard. Others, I think till my brain feels like It was hit with a mallet, burned to a crisp, and thrown into a bottomless hole that will suck everything I was currently thinking into a chamber that is locked, and I would not be able to uncover those hidden thoughts until I am in a situation that I have no way to record the idea or write it down. Then it’s gone. Along with many others that should’ve made #1 hit songs. (sorry off topic) But anyway, writing is what I do, and how I will be able to live a musical life where people will like me for who I am, and I won’t fake my music. I am going to write when I am being completely myself and are able to explain who I am through a pretty average catchy, lyrical, deep song.
December 22, 2017